Figured out my "off" feeling

In my last post I mentioned I've been feeling a little off, with headaches, dizziness, etc. I think I even speculated it might be because of the new anti-depressant my doc put me on. Well.....DING DING DING DING! We have a winner! Some other goofy things have been happening besides headaches and dizziness: very weepy for no reason, irrationally angry, vivid dreams, loss of appetite, increase in urination (too much information! lol), eye twitching, and weight loss, increase in libido (way too much info!) to be specific.

I spent much of the morning today on the internet trying to figure these out, and hit a jackpot with my new AD - Wellbutrin XL. I am very pleased to say that all of the strange things I've been experiencing are common side effects for this drug, among many others that I am lucky enough not to have experienced thus far. The good news is that the majority of them should lessen sometime during the next 3 weeks or so. If I could endure morning sickness for practically 9 months of each of my pregnancies, I can certainly deal with this. And I have to admit that both the good pastor and I are enjoying the increase in libido (wicked giggle)!! I make light of that, because it is extremely personal, but after 6 years of DECREASED (read PRACTICALLY NONEXISTENT) libido - it is a much welcome change. He and I, as you may already have figured out :), are very much in love - still - and sex is a normal way for happy couples to express that love. Not to mention it's fun and it feels good. SO, after all these years of not being able to enjoy it the way we've wanted, I almost want to shout it from the mountaintop! And there's one nearby, you know. HOWEVER, I'll refrain from that and just shout it here. So there.

As for my eating history yesterday - oooooh. Bad girl! Bad girl! Here it is:

8:00 am Water, 8 oz.
8:30 am lemon flavored sandwich cookies, about 6
bagel chips, about 3 handsful
6:30 pm 3 tacos, a cheese quesadilla, and nachos - all from Del Taco
coke, about 30 oz.
10:00 pm white toast with butter, 4 slices
diet coke - about 12 oz.

That's all! I spent about 30-40 minutes on the phone in the am with an old friend (thanks, Chris! Love you!) - then it was one visitor after another at church until 3:30, when I had to leave for a dr. appt. (my endocrinologist who has the plan for the surgery), then I ran errands until I finally got home about 8:45. I know an occasional day like this is not the end of the world, but it is certainly something to flag and be aware of for later. Post-surgery, this is not a good day. I'll have to talk to my nutritionist later to see exactly how bad it would be. Today so far is not a whole lot better, but I'm about to go to lunch and turn that right around.

I think I need to make a visit to the grocery store for some more easy, protein-filled choices for breakfast. Stuff I can grab as I run out the door: boiled eggs, I think; but then what?

Totally OT: I have not yet formed a strong opinion on this subject, because I haven't been able to examine things from both sides, but: Since Gov. Richardson has a state of emergency in 4 border counties in NM, due to lax immigration practices and strong meth trafficking over the border, I wanted to post this link I found yesterday: http://www.oregonlive.com/news/oregonian/photos/gallery.ssf?cgi-bin/view_gallery.cgi/olive/view_gallery.ata?g_id=2927. It's called "The Faces of Meth" and it's a little frightening, to say the least. As I said, I don't yet know how I feel about this whole situation. I have never used meth, or known a meth user, so I can't judge. I've no personal experience, so I don't feel like I have a right. As someone who cares about other people, though, I found these pix sad and frightening. Does anyone know if this is sort of typical, or is the state of Oregon being melodramatic to make a point? Your thoughts?....

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